journey to the past........

ilang oras na lang, christmas na. dito ako sa office and how i wish na sana kasama ko ulit family ko sa bacolod. nung buhay pa sina lola, lolo, at si mommy, pag-25, sa bahay ang celebration. naging tradition na sa family namin na merong gathering ang buong family. sa noche buena, may visit ang co-masons ni lolo and imbes na kami ang nagbibigay ng pamasko, kami ang binibigyan ng regalo.

pagsapit naman ng gabi ng dec.31, dun kami sa bahay ng uncle ko. tradition na rin samin na duon ang celebration.

matagal na rin akong di naka-celebrate ng pasko at bagong taon kasama sila. wala na si mommy, si lolo at si lola. lalo pa na di ko na rin kasama ang tatay ko.

pero ang nami-miss ko ngayon..... ang anak ko. ilang taon din di kami magkasama na tuwing december. i'm praying na sana dumating na rin ung time na magkasama kami bumili ng mga gamit nya and lahat ng mga gusto nya.

nakakalungkot isipin pero sana, pwede ko lang mabalik ang oras. nung kumpleto pa kaming lahat. miss ko silang lahat.... at sana miss din nila ako.

" heart don't fail me now
courage don't desert me
don't turn back now that we're here
people always say
life is full of choices
no one ever mentions fear.

or how the road can seem so long
how the world can seem so vast
courage see me through
heart i'm trusting you
on this journey to the past.

somewhere down this road
i know someone's waiting
years of dreams just can't be wrong
arms will open wide
ill be safe and wanted
finally home where i belong
well starting here my life begins
starting now im learning fast
courage see me through
heart i trust in you
on this journey to the past.

home, love, family
there was once a time
i must've had them too
home, love, family
i will never be complete until i find you.

one step at a time
one hope then another
who knows where this road may go.
back to who i was
onto find my future
things my heart still needs to know

yes, let this be a sign
let this road be mine
let it lead me to my past
courage see me through
heart i trust in you
to bring me home at last."