for my father :

This is for my father whom I haven’t seen for almost four years now. Truth is, we never communicated again after a bad confrontation with him. I know that he will never had the chance to read this but if time comes we see each other again, I hope I will have the chance to tell him everything I never said before.

Remember that I was your baby before. You treated me just like a sibling; we always go to the movie and eat at our favorite restaurant. You were like a brother I never had. And I tell you things I can’t tell Mom.

But that was before. Now, everything changed. You have a family of your own. And the last time we talked, it’s as if we were not separated for years. I told you “ I miss you” but you never told me what you feel. And when finally I went home to see you, you were never excited to spend even just one day with me.

I don’t know where I went wrong. And I’m like being stabbed on the heart for the cold treatment you gave me. I sometimes wonder if you still love me or was there ever a minute you stopped just to think of me.

Truth is, I miss you so much. You just don’t know I cry almost every night thinking I am no longer the daughter you had before. I miss our time together, our talk, especially your fatherly love.

I am praying that one day comes we can spend time again.

I am wishing that I could still feel I am loved.

I hope it’s not yet too late.